I deserve to say all these things by ( a sick and tired idiot)

Regrets all by myself

I don't know If I can make it till the end of time with you. I have been sacrificing, sharing,devoting, and using all my time, my energy, for you to serve and protect you and even to ease all the hardships in life. This coming May will be my 5th year with you. Everyday of my life I have been serving you, thinking what is best for you,even to make some deviations of my work just to please you. I take out some precious time for my family just to be with you. You are cared differently among your colleagues which prompted them to tell you how fortunate you are to have someone in you. You have all the edge that I prefer to. But every story has to end, every movie has its ending, everyone has its final destination (not the movie), and honestly I would say relationship ends too. As what I had in mind I hope I can still make it. This is the moment that I can always feel that I am just taken for granted, used, and I don't deserve you as the last person to be with you when the Almighty will take me home. Sometimes I asked my self is it wonderful if as early as now I will be joining the Creator to rest all the heavy loads I carry. I am very much afraid to say that I still love you considering the fact that now I am just been taken for granted. I was hoping that you will love me strongly as years to come but it lately I don't feel that love you used to let me feel.. I am not a perfect individual but I am sorry to say that I have my regrets of having you in my life.There is much pain and sorrow. If ever you will be able to read this, I know you will be cursing me to death and I expect that from no one else but YOU.