RACE AGAINST YOURSELF (from where to nowhere?)

When I was writing this article I am in the middle of my daily workload. I have some reports to make, things to be retrieve, an activity going on at the gym where I am supposed to attend, an application for a certain loan to be filled up and submitted to the concerned office and clearance to be sign. My tummy is giving me some signal that my large intestine will soon be eaten by the big intestine due to hunger. ha! ha! I hope not. Am I doing this all the time to survive? Haven’t I am doing this when I was in school? Rushing all the requirements, exams, and even number of hours to complete the course. What else is new?  I am now a licensed practitioner for several years and I could say I have been making a lot of professionals too through years of practice.

This is what you call a race against yourself towards nowhere. Does it mean that I don’t know the finishing line? I know that every race has its starting point and the end point where a winner or a finisher is directed. Yes, I am competing myself, sometimes I have to defeat myself at one example to that is when waking up early morning for a certain time when my body is lazy to get up. Some who are same as my age have doctor’s advisory for their diet that is when a tough competition takes place between your craves and the diet prescribed. When you are asked to attend a certain meeting of which you know that after the meeting there is an additional workload to be discussed and implemented with the same figure you are receiving every 15^th and 30^th of every boring months. You tend to asked now, what seems to be the prizes for all of this?  No one can answer and nobody is willing to discuss about it. A moment of silent will have a small voice of which you know that there is someone around with you. A silent listener to every conversation and an unseen guest in every meal. The Lord. He is the beginning and the end “the Alpha and the Omega”.  

THERE IS GOD IN EVERY SMILE ( ^ ^ ) as I believe

 



You are just a smile away. This is just one line of a song back in the 80’s that until now sometimes still airing over the radio. What is the smile that I can say you are just a smile away? First, we have to fully understand what, when and why we smile? As far as normal individuals are concerned, smiling should and must be appropriate in accordance to the situation and the stimulus. Beyond those are difficult to define a certain smile one can get. Sometimes people have been criticized for a smile they manifest. Others find themselves difficult to smile or having a hard time stretching those muscles on their face. Experts says that your brain dictates how your heart will release emotions that results an easy stretching of your facial muscles thus a sweet, lovely and heart pounding smile would appear. I am not a good looking individual of which people would glance at me twice and start talking about my good appearance but I could give the best ( killer smile as they said) prompting you to give me your second look and smile back at me for a small appreciation. Psychologists would agree that a smile could ease one’s emotions and feelings. There is an unexplainable chemical formula and a law of physics that is present in a smile if being shared with an open heart and mind. The line of a song “You’re just a smile away” I believe explains the trust with each other knowing what that smile signifies. The closeness even plays a big role in such situation that you are just a smile away in some aspects in life that “help” is the bottom line for somebody in need. However, there is one rule most of us would definitely agree that if you are not capable, hesitant, with deep anger or in pain, do not bother to smile which will be use against you. For a perfect smile is with GOD in your heart and GOD is just a smile away for us to be much closer to HIM.

The Journey to One's Purpose in Life

This is when you stumble down.

         

There is much to become when you are able to go for a purpose. The question lies what really is your purpose in everything. Waking up early in the morning everyday 6 days a week so as not to be late in work, school or other things that certainly gives you an edge to survive among others in the society. I was wondering if these are the daily routines I am supposed to do for the rest of my life. But somehow there is lacking in it. Our speaker in one of the recollection I attended said when there is a purpose you can end into your goal. He added that identifying yourself may add a big factor in reaching your goals. Why am I doing such thing? why I am still on this stage? or a lot of why has to be formulated for a question to come up with a strong foundation of who is really me? and why am I still here with such purpose?

The Pride that Never Was

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"Keep on blaming myself, I should have eaten my pride" This is just one line of a song back in the 90's done by a local artist I supposed. Do I have to blame myself just to fix all of it? Why am I only me? It this kind a wrong move when I am also entitled to be take care of. In every conflict the "pride" plays an important role in such a way that it can give a moral lesson to the other. And I definitely agree on that. If only pride has its measuring device that would give us what is the minimum and the maximum a pride can be used. A ranged which would probably determined where both can settle before it can get worst for more. A one's pride is a defense mechanism that can totally protect you or destroy you. It's like having a Nuclear plant, it can have a good effect within it and it can harm on the other end. For some it is always an advantage when they are look up for their pride, it gives them the total importance of who they are and how are they meant to others. Different individuals comes from a different up bringing. Your thinking might not as good as my understanding. Your color might not be as contrast as what my eyes can see. I'm not a fish that would always take the bait.'

I deserve to say all these things by ( a sick and tired idiot)

Regrets all by myself

I don't know If I can make it till the end of time with you. I have been sacrificing, sharing,devoting, and using all my time, my energy, for you to serve and protect you and even to ease all the hardships in life. This coming May will be my 5th year with you. Everyday of my life I have been serving you, thinking what is best for you,even to make some deviations of my work just to please you. I take out some precious time for my family just to be with you. You are cared differently among your colleagues which prompted them to tell you how fortunate you are to have someone in you. You have all the edge that I prefer to. But every story has to end, every movie has its ending, everyone has its final destination (not the movie), and honestly I would say relationship ends too. As what I had in mind I hope I can still make it. This is the moment that I can always feel that I am just taken for granted, used, and I don't deserve you as the last person to be with you when the Almighty will take me home. Sometimes I asked my self is it wonderful if as early as now I will be joining the Creator to rest all the heavy loads I carry. I am very much afraid to say that I still love you considering the fact that now I am just been taken for granted. I was hoping that you will love me strongly as years to come but it lately I don't feel that love you used to let me feel.. I am not a perfect individual but I am sorry to say that I have my regrets of having you in my life.There is much pain and sorrow. If ever you will be able to read this, I know you will be cursing me to death and I expect that from no one else but YOU.

April Fools for Fooliticians

Some Leaders have Monkey Business



It's the month of April as what they said " April fools day" falls on it. This is the time when King Herod's men had encounter the Three Wise Men when they were looking for the newly born baby as the King of Kings. The three pointer Herod's men in other direction and make a fool out it to cover the place where the baby was. Now, in our time as compare during those times, we have been experiencing, witnessing, practicing and fooling people. The " Government I should say is a very good, concrete and powerful example of an agency which practices fooling the entire population using the constitution in order to extend their power to rule and gain more wealth. These are men who have immunity I should say which they are different from an ordinary citizens of the land. They can over power the law, they can play with the law and they usually wins! During the election campaign they emphasizes to the people that they are just  your humble public servant asking your single votes to serve you, protect you as well as provide the livelihood portion of every citizen in the country. They would even stand under the heat of the sun and the wetness in the rain during those times to show how faithful they are to everyone young and old, rich and poor. They invite celebrities for you to be entertained and to prove that even these movie idols of yours are for this politician who are now in the act of fooling people. An act which are very much likely present whenever somebody is serving the public.

Dreams and Dreams

The picture above almost the same as the scenario on some of my dreams.



I begin to ask myself and also if anyone can give the exact meaning every time I had a dream that I am on top of a large bus trying to hold on as it makes a curved that I know I am going to fall. There were several times that I had this kind of dream it is more terrifying than a monster or any creatures appearing on my nightmares. There might be tree branches that will hit me on top of the bus while it is in motion. I believe that every dream has its own meaning. Until now I am still in the process trying to look for some answers to this. I am just wondering if the Chinese astrologists or Indians or other culture has something to say about this dream of mine on top of a moving bus as it turns into a curve that I feel its going to fall.